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Wednesday - Nov 18, 2009By: Vivek Sharma
Attempt…

Attempt
I play badminton almost everyday for 2 hours…
I was out of practice but decided to start… restart…
All other players were playing in full swing and I was running in all direction to return the shuttle…
I kept attempting to get the game right… with power…with mind… reflex… with all… I was attempting and I got it right…
Now it’s difficult to beat me…
It’s so important to attempt, to achieve… anything…everything…
Two days back one injured rat entered out badminton court… We stopped…
I made thud sound with my shoe near him and he made angry sounds and ran towards me… As a reflection I went two steps back…:)
Superb… an injured rat is attempting to fight and literally scared me…I went two steps back…
He took over the court for sometime… we just stood there…
So many times we just give up assuming that now it’s over…
Nope… it’s never over… Just keep trying…
We can achieve more than what we think…
Koshish karke toh dekho…
I am learning classical music from Gwalior gharaana… my Guru ji Ustaad Sajjad Hussain is a die hard positive person… more than meJ
I keep goofing up in “sur” and he keeps correcting me… I love his zeal for teaching and he loves mine for learning…
He starts his first teaching class at 9am and it goes till 9pm…for twelve hours he can teach.. I can at least spend two hours in learning… hai na…
I know I am just trying… I don’t know if I will ever learn music in its complete form…
But I know I am at least attempting…
We are so full of excuses and reasons.. just leave all…jump…learn… attempt… try…
It’s one life and so much to do…:)
A rat can fight back… a vivek sharma can play badminton and learn music… so you all are toh so talented and so full of life…
What’s stopping you…:)
Attempt… NOW…….
And you will be surprised with success…
Trust me…:)

- Jump
Monday - Nov 16, 2009By: Vivek Sharma
Complex Emotions…
Long back someone asked me, what is the one word for “paap” in English…
I replied, sin…
Ok what’s the one word for “punya”
I took a pause, thought and replied, good deed…
Ya but its not one word…. English dictionary doesn’t have one word for “punya”
Or may be they don’t have any concept of “punya”
Well, that’s not possible… every existing human goes through feeling of goodness and guilt.
In cinema, we generally believe that there are only 14 stories and few emotions.
But I believe there are several stories and just two emotions.
Love and Hate….
Combination and permutations of these two emotions create more emotions…
Complex emotions.
Which you can’t define.
Sometimes…
I remember in college days if we fight with certain student, whole group will boycott that person.
Then in relations, in blood relations or cousins, whoever would create problem for us, we would discard them forever.
When I came to Mumbai, I witness a complete different world.
New world of emotions.
Nobody is anybody’s friend or enemy.
It’s a strange problem.
I am brought up with two definite emotions and now I get confused to see my close people getting in touch with people who were discarded by us long time ago.
When I ask my friends, they are very “cool” about it.
My family speaks to all those relatives who have created so much of problem in our lives once.
I get amazed.
I am not saadhu… I don’t want to be.
But I want to remain human being, with just two basic emotions.
Black and white… good and bad… loves or hate…
The whole concept of forgiving is fine, but no one can bring back that loss of time or amount of stress we have gone through in fights or in confusion of complex emotions…
I had written it before… Ussi Se Thanda… Ussi Se Garam…
I have recently witnessed strange behavior from my own friends. I am amazed to think, to analyse, to realise that how un-important I am in their lives.
They all are so dying to leave me.. to dis-connect with me…
Now I am again in the trap of complex emotions.
Maine jiske liye out of the way jaake kuch kiya… ab wo mujhe nakaar raha hai…
Generally, main jisse ek baar dua deta hoon toh phir baddua nahi deta…
But what I am trying to know is that, do we all go through these complex emotions?
I think we all get confused in the process to remain good, good human being.
But trust me, its not worth it.
We must over come complexity of emotions.
Jo ghalat hai… wo ghalat hai…
Even if it’s done by our own blood…
Defending someone for wrong reason is really wrong…
Life is one way traffic… Jo beet Gaya… Wo Ghuzar Gaya…
So many people come in our lives and leave us… so many times we leave them…
And each incident gives us a new shade of emotion…
A new complex emotion…
If you stop and look back.. you have matured… in wrong direction…
Aren’t we indirectly taking revenge with someone?
That’s the result of complex emotion…
We forget humour and become sarcastic…:)
Its just an analysis.. you don’t have to agree with me…but I am clear…
I am not confused… as far as emotions are concerned….
Mwaaaaahh………….:)

Black And White
Tuesday - Nov 10, 2009By: Vivek Sharma
Condition Yourself…
Life is unpredictable… so are we…
Mood swings, attitude change, change in relations… so many seasons we go through..
Some we choose, some we just face…
We must learn to condition ourselves with all kind of unpredictable happenings in our lives.
No matter if its on the professional front or personal front.
Animals have an amazing instinct to forecast weather. We have that instinct too but we believe that it won’t happen.
But it happens. And it bothers us.
We are never ready. I don’t know why.
We never anticipate. We generally take it easy. Its like studying only in last three months for the exam.
In cinema we travel a lot. In different time zones to different moods of unit members.
No one can imagine how we go through mood swings of 400 people. That’s the strength of any regular unit most of the time.
Everyone is so demanding, expects more than their status. Not ready for the unpredictable.
Largely seasons are set. We know three definite seasons. We know when it arrives but even then we remain lazy to condition ourselves.
I am talking about life, and its unpredictable ways. When we are not ready, we call it hurdle… When we are ready we call it process…
And process we always enjoy…:)
Condition yourself. Don’t crib. Just come out of your comfort zone and enjoy.
We are the privileged ones who have better life, better food and major survival instinct. Just use it correctly and be ready.
Don’t get surprised, surprise life with your preparation.
Face it head on. .
And be a winner….

Here To Stay...
Friday - Nov 6, 2009By: Vivek Sharma
New Phrases… :)
I have been observing a lot of people around me using different new phrases these days.. a new language… half baked… its called “this n that” language…
Tentative.. god know how they understand each other…
But here are few phrases… which gives a glimpse of us… Our new society..
“its ok…
“No its really not ok…
“what do you mean?
“I know what you mean…
“Only i know what you mean…
“You will never get this… never…
“Anyways, god bless..take care…
“Hmmmmmm…..
“You mean a lot to me..
“I can’t believe this..
“Keep in touch…
“You never bothered to call…
“so….
“I never said that…
“Who cares…
“Life is beyond all this…
“Move on…
“We are friends….
“I hate people who have two faces…
“You have to speak their language ya…
“You know how it is…
“Just chill…
“You toh never call..
“You lost so much of weight…?:)
“Ok…i am going…
“I always treated you as a family…
“Why it happens with me always…
“I am so happy that you are in my life…
“I wish i had never met you…
“Now i know life….
“I have learnt a lot….
“Let it be…
please react to these and let me know what does it mean to you:)

Please Explain...:)
Tuesday - Nov 3, 2009By: Vivek Sharma
Colours Of Life… :)

Bright As Life
I was coming back from my music class..
Guru ji ne bohat saari raag rehearse karai…
Mood achcha tha…
I took a turn towards khar danda… Basti area…
Huge traffic but music was on my mind…
So I did not mind…
Two kids stared knocking my car window from outside… with a smile and hope…
I asked them what do they want…?
Uncle aage tak chhod do na…
I smiled and allowed them to sit.
And they took over my car…
Started checking air conditioner to its power to the rear view mirror to music system.
Iski toh…
I asked what do they do?
They both replied that they are in 4th standard and generally they take lift from some carwaala.
One kid saw the poster of Wanted and screamed, wanteddddddd… salman bhaaaaai…
I said, “film dekhi tum dono ne?”
They both excitedly replied, “haaaaan…:)
I politely asked, “Bhoothnath dekhi…?”
They became very happy…
“haan, kitti baar dekhi…”
I was wearing my sunglasses and with a lot of style I said, “maine banai hai”
They both looked at me with complete disbelief.
One laughed, “ha ha… kuch bhi…”
Iski toh… Ye toh maan hi nahi rahe hain…
I firmly said, “arre maine banai hai….”
One immediately asked me, “achcha bataao Banku ke friend ka naam kya tha?”
I said, “Jojo.”
They both looked at each other. They were amused. Ye toh sahi bata diya isne…
One said, “wo toh koi bhi bata dega… tv mein itti baar aati hai…”
I stopped the car and removed my shades and said, “abe oye… mera naam vivek sharma hai… maine banai hai Banku waali Bhoothnath… kabhi mera naam type karna google mein toh same chehra dikhega… daag waala…”
They checked scar on my face… and one said, yaad rakhna ritesh, right side mein hai…
They wanted to check that scar is on right side so that in Google if its in wrong side… I am gone…
Ha Ha…
Indian Cinema ke 2 bade mega stars ke saath film banaane ke baad bhi identity crisis…
I loved it…
Then finally one kid asked me to give autograph…
And I said , “jab kuch bann jaaunga tab autograph dunga…”
Still time…………………………………………………………..







